Yesterday, before heading out with the baby, I went through my diaper bag/purse to make sure I had plenty of baby supplies. I found in there several newborn sized diapers.
And I wanted to cry. At over 10 lbs., Andrew has outgrown these tiny diapers. So much so, that it’s hard to believe he wore them just a few weeks ago.
He is growing too fast for me. I love snuggling with him, chest to chest. And I love all of his squeaky baby noises. And how he can sleep just about anywhere.
Already he is staying awake more and paying more attention to his surroundings. He even smiled for me the other day, which thrilled me, but again made me sad.
I look around at all the other babies born to the preschool moms this year and can’t believe how big they all are. I know that, come the return of school, they’re all going to think the same about Andrew.
Maybe I should become a nanny for newborns only. Accept them for just the first four months or so. Then I could have a steady stream of itty-bitty baby-ness and I wouldn’t be so sad to see Andrew grow.
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1 Caroline // May 19, 2010 at 4:01 pm
I know the feeling, although not as well as you do. There’s something so special about that brand new period. Sometimes it makes me sad to think I will never have that again. But then again there are always babies around to snuggle!
2 laura // May 21, 2010 at 12:06 am
i totally understand….bittersweet.
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